Onsugar

I HAVE MOVED TO www.myclichedfairytale.onsugar.com, so you can find me there now. Haha I know many of you haven't heard of it before but I'm still fiddling with it so.. yeah.

God.

BACK TO MY XANGA

Hello everyone. I know I haven't used my xanga since.. what? Maybe.. last year? Well, since then, a lot has happened. But if you're viewing this, you probably know me and might get what's going on in my life. Okay, so maybe nobody will bother, cause this site has been so still and with no updates so nobody will view anymore but I just felt like blogging to here goes.

Lately, a lot has been troubling me, EOYs is so close. Ughhh. And.. WY and I are hoping for a hugeee miracle to happen for the both of us... Help us pray. And I believe that God will make all this right. Plus I have gym tomorrow, bummer. Okay, so....  let's talk about today.

I..

-had home ec, made banana muffins. Yumm.

-recess; wy and I went on an adventure, but before that I gave her one muffin.

-prefects were away and we had so much more freedom.

-went to waffletown + far east, bought rach a.'s friend's present and went back to maths remedial 45 minutes late.

-got lectured after that.

-came home all exhausted, watched tv and walked chowchow.

Now I'm supposed to do geog, and I didn't hand in my chinese compre today, and I have to prepare for my chinese compo, history test (revision, not that impt), physics test (counted, and I have no clue about what's going on in physics class, really!) AND lang arts presentation. Now I guess no more carnival OR sleepover for me this weekend. Even though I doubt that I will even do my work at home. Ughh. Scgs sucks (but my friends don't)! Of course, If I were given the miraculous opportunity to leave scgs and go somewhere else I feel is better, I'd be over the moon and eternally grateful to God (I already am eternally grateful, though). Then I'd just go. Just saying..

Now, I know what's most important. Not my studies, not my social life, not my cca, not school. It's my loved ones! Got to treasure them while they're still there lest I regret it forever (like pipi). So I must spend more time with them. Especially with chowchow

Heaven

I'm honestly dying, waking up every 2 hours at night, and all because pipi had to go. It's getting worse day by day, where I have to never see her ever again, all I want is to be given a second chance to treasure her, I want her back. You might think "All this because of a dog?" but she was so much more than just a dog, and when she was alive, I didn't let it show, and now it's too late, I feel like committing suicide. Without her I feel so empty, and I feel like she's still here, but she's not. I have been driving myself insane, and in the past, the only remedy used to be pipi, but now she's gone, and I can't hug her and cry anymore. I want her back so badly. I honestly wanna die.

EDIT./

Okay that was me in one of my depressed mood swings, I'm just a mad woman. Ignore me for now.